falls

i went to gillette to get my baclofen pump refilled this morning. dr. shuh was gone, so he had a fill-in doctor to take his place and refill my pump. they asked me if i fell lately and i told them that i fell last month in the bathroom because the home health aid transferred me wrong and fell with me. then i told them that i fell with my walker last month with a different aid. they just assumed it was my fault right away, they didn't even think that maybe the home health aid was doing something wrong which is why i fell. if you remember me telling you this, i fell in the bathroom because the home health aid was transferring me the wrong way (she had her arms under my arm pits walking in back of me.. i'm fully capable of baring my own weight but this is how the moron-gladys transfers me, so she thought that was correct) AND the second time, gladys fell with me in my reverse walker. none of these times did she have a transfer belt on, which is always supposed to be on at all times. the dumbass of a doctor stopped and said to me, "well, why don't you just say to the aids: "stop! put my transfer belt on, i have a history of falling." and i started to laugh at him. he asked me why i was laughing and i told him because that isn't something that i could picture myself saying. he acts like it should be all my responsibility for the activities of the stupid home health aids. i told him that i didn't want to be put in a nursing home and he said, "well, why would you be put in a nursing home?" and i said, "you said that this apartment wasn't safe for me and you would probably go and put me in a nursing home because you'd say it'd be safe for me. i want to be as independent as possible." and the doctor told me that no one was thinking about putting me in a nursing home. no one said anything about a nursing home but i was just ruling out the worst situation.